Hmm... now in my MO's room having my break... haiz... jus now came to work feeling a bit of no strength like dat... walk like you qi wu li...haha...then b4 dat was at home watching Lavender..cant use com as bro's frens came so din go into my bro's room... was sitting in the living room with my niece.... hmm... as i was watching the show... lots of thots came to my mind...
Seeing Ji Qin Chuan(male character in show) n Yi Xun(CHen Yi Rong) so happily together...makes me wanna fall in love too.... makes me so envy of them...makes me think of the past.... n everything dat made me so happi b4.... Love can realli makes yr world go round.... seeing so many happy couples together..makes me feel happi for them too... Think dat verse of "the grass is always greener on the other side" realli is true... when u are in a r/s.... sometimes will think if single maybe will b better.... then when u are single... u will feel the other way round... haiz... sometimes realli dun know wat u actually wan loh.... so complicated...so vexed>>.....haiz... hmmm.... ppl always tell me.... u so good... got so many ppl jui ni.... well... to me... i feel dat its not good to have ppl jui me loh.... i rather not having ppl to jui...cos i know in the end...i will hurt them more..... cos i cant possibly accept all of them.... i can onli accept one...n then?....the rest?...i will onli make them sad n disappointed.... and sometimes... i will tell myself... y are u so bad.... always make ppl sad de.... then i think to myself... jui hao noone likes me...if the one who likes me, he will b the dao mei one.... cos he will b sad de.... haiz... maybe i think too much le..... my colleague always tell me not to think so much... jus b happi dat ppl treat u good loh.... but i will feel dat they dun need to do all these loh.... cos its not necessary n i'm also not their who..... n she will tell me...outside alot of gals also like dat.... n veri common.... but i jus feel awrward loh.... haiz... I dun know la... think i'm quite a sensitive de nu ren.... will think for others n their feelings....
hmmm... jus want to say wat i'm thinking..then think i write too much le...haiz... gotta get back to work le.... byeeee.....
